I can't take my eyes off of you.

word.

It's more than just loyalties.

Girls are dumb. Everything is a game. I have legit enemies who are my best friends. I come to school and I don't think anyone is loyal to me or how I feel. I don't understand what has happened to people. We're all just so wrapped up in our lives and were we're going that we don't even care who we have to step on to get there. I don't want to do this fake game of, Hey Girl Hey! in the hall and have my hands all over your man next weekend. I'm fake. FAKE FAKE FAKE. I don't like you, I think you're an annoying whore. Go away and stop talking to me.
And another thing, BOYS?! WTF. Get away from me and stop looking at me like you know what I'm all about. Don't play hot and cold, you're not cute and it drives me nuts. If I look fragile I probably am, don't push all my buttons at once I'll probably just explode. Seriously walk in someone else's shoes for five minutes, get your hands out of your pants and suck it the fuck up.

It's 10 PM.

It's 10 o' clock PM, and i feel washed out. I feel tired and defeated. The creases in my hands are deep and are starting to itch. I feel bloated and like a whale that unfortunately enough for me, just was washed up on the shore. I feel like there's a beautiful person inside me crying, and I'm not even kidding. I feel like I have the potential to be beautiful. I feel like I have the potential to be loved. I have the potential to change someone's world, and I feel like no one will give me the chance. I'm 16 and I'm ready to find my other half, I'm sick of mismatched puzzle pieces. I'm ready to feel complete. I'm done with this empty feeling. I'm done with wondering if I'm pretty. I'm ready for someone to fall in love with me, and to think I am more wonderful that I find him. I'm done with hormones, I'm done with hook ups, I'm done with cheep flirts. I'm ready for good wine, holding hands, and True Life re runs. I want this more than I've ever wanted anything. I feel empty.
Fact: I need to work on being single.